I forgot I never posted these! My first attempt at a ...."somewhat" accurate drawing of myself. Kind of. I'm working on learning different body types, so it's not entirely accurate but it's also mildly idealized.
Don't mind me posting old art to try and cover up the fact that I haven't started on new stuff today...
#self rebagel #these two images mean so fucking much to me #because THIS #THIS IS WHAT I STRIVE FOR #THIS IS WHY I WANT TOP SURGERY #these are actually REALLY CLOSE TO WHAT I LOOK LIKE #minus a bit of weight but #like this is my IDEAL #looking at them hurts #but also helps #you'll never catch me in shorts irl tho #not unless I lose a lot of weight #heugh9 notes
me, trying out different ways to draw snails: okay this is actually kind of fun I can have fun with th-
the need to put the lettering under the snail: [BARRELS IN AND DESTROYS EVERYTHING]
what the fuck even is typography
#personal blather #really I should probably just leave the lettering until I put it digital #I've found 2 ways to draw the snail #one super stylized #the other less so #that should allow for two nice color schemes that are distinctive #it's just the damn ALC I have to add #L's are hard for me to work with cause they leave so much blank space #and c's are just like #L's pretending to be cool #heugh6 notes
I’m in the fucking worst conundrum right now
cause like I had a good time and now of course my anxiety is setting in and I’m trying NOT to freak out about seeing her again later this week
but she..keeps messaging me. And I just need a break. My social energy was depleted after those 2 hours today that’s...so much more energy than I’ve used in a long time
but also she leaves in two weeks so like
if not now. When? Right?
so I’m just chasing myself in circles in a stoned, late night, very tired, depression dip that we neurodivergents know oh so well
#personal #depression cw #I had to turn off read receipts on WhatsApp for the first time ever #I just need a break that’s all #I’m a slow moving person #it takes me so. long. #to warm up to new people #potential friends let alone someone I might date #but I don’t have...the time to do that #and it just feels so overwhelming #Heugh #I really need to stop making these fucking posts on here #either that or rename my blog #“the life and times of a panicking agender 30-ish individual with the occasional bit of somewhat decent art” #mouthful but true3 notes